What's up Doc?

Well it has been a tough couple of weeks...going through a complete cleanse of body, mind and soul. I do not talk about family very often but those that do know me, know that my mother is no longer with me. I have been trying to cleanse her out of my body. I have gained quite a bit of weight that I have blamed on a back injury, but alas I cannot any longer.

When I became a mother I realized that my childhood was completely strange and abusive. I really did not have any other "family" to gauge the way my family went. My mother who was married and divorced 5 times was a little different to say the least. I have finally come to terms with my childhood and finding out I have a wonderful sister at 29 has definitely helped! Have you ever met someone (other than a spouse) that thinks like you, words things like you, has the same toes that you have? Well I have not and it has been a wonderful 5 years in November that we have been able to laugh together and cry together and hopefully I have been as much of a help to her as she has to me!

So, that is what I have been working on. I have put the crafts, sewing, cooking and everything else except the girl and honey bunny away for around a month and have worked on me. I have needed a lot of work!

But now on to crafting, sorry for the serious tone, but that is what I believe makes us human!

I did the Bountiful farmer's Market for one week and found that it was not worth all the extra sewing, setting up and $10 to be a part of it! But oh well, ETSY here I stay! I don't know if other crafters have the feelings of doubt that I sometimes have. I look at an apron or curtain or just something that I have made and think I totally love it but why on earth would anyone else like it? Then the girl who is almost 9 comes in and says "Oh Mommy, I love it, can I have it? Will you make me one then in another color?" So I think maybe this will sell.

I am working on a new endeavor! I cater small parties and events quite often, and some of the ladies at these events have asked if I have a cookbook available. Well here it comes I am writing a cookbook! I use really simple ingredients and try to make them into something great and appealing to the eye. I learned how to cook mostly from my Grandma who I miss on a daily basis. She cooked for 40 or so ranch hands, breakfast, lunch and dinner. You can imagine what a great lesson this was for me my entire childhood. My Grandma Lola was the one constant and greatest family member I ever had. So I am putting some of my spins on Grandma's ole' good ones! And also if you hang around enough you will know that I dream recipes. Literally dream of recipes and food. I don't remember when this started but has been going on for some time now! I think Honey Bunny brings out the creativity in me and apparently the food dreams!

I have to get some work done on this "book" , I am including some pictures and stories of where the recipe came from so that maybe people will not think of me as quite so weird when they find out that I dream of food and recipes of things that I have never tried before and do not know how to make at all! The first batch is usually not the best but the fam will usually suffer through it for my sake and then give great feedback and improvement ideas. Not that they complain at all about all the yummy homemade food!